A letter to Jadon

Jadon David,

Today is the anniversary date of when you went to see Jesus. Six years ago today we watched you as you left this earth and your spirit went to Heaven. I remember holding you for the first time that day knowing that day was going to be your last day with us. It felt so unfair to us and to you. I remember holding you after you left us - seeing you for the first time dressed in a little blue sleeper with no more tubes attached to your body. I knew you weren't there with us anymore, but I didn't want to let you go. All of our dreams for you were gone. I wish we could've had more than those two weeks together, but I am so glad that you are living a much better life with Jesus than you would've here on this earth. You never had to experience the awful sin of this world and for that you are so blessed. I know the two weeks you spent on this earth were not enjoyable for you, but I thank Jesus for giving us that time to see you and be with you. I pray that you don't remember the pain or the suffering you went through while you were here. I pray that you do remember us being there with you, talking to you, singing to you, holding your hand, praying for you and just sitting beside you. At times it doesn't even seem that you were even here. It almost seems as if it was a dream.

I don't know if you can see us down here on earth, but you have two awesome and beautiful little brothers, Josiah and Joshua and we talk to them about you and they ask questions about you and want to see you just as much and your daddy and I do. I share about you and show your scrapbook to lots of people because we will never forget you. Your story ministers to others and reminds us of how precious life is and how grateful we should be for what God has given us.

I can't express in words how much I miss you and cannot wait to see you again.

I love you Jadon,
Mommy